I will never be a big blogger.
I’m okay with that.
I’ll be honest, in the beginning I entertained the idea here and there of trying out the blogging scene. I mean, there are billions of blog posts out there telling you how easy it is to make it big in the blogging world. How hard could it be?
And then I gave up about a month later.
Here are some reasons why.
To be a big blogger, it takes:
I don’t have a lot of extra time. I barely have time to keep up with what’s on my plate now. And honestly, something would be very very wrong if I chose to spend all of what little time I have on my blog instead of actually going out and living life to the full with my loved ones.
2. A Consistent Outflow of Material
Many big bloggers would recommend making a blogging schedule so that your readers will come back for more, knowing that you’re producing material consistently. I’ve tried, but you know what? Maintaining a consistent outflow of material requires TIME (surprise!). Also, when I’ve tried producing material on a consistent basis, I produce a lot of crap. Why? Because I’m just trying to write stuff for the sake of publishing a post, not because my heart’s in it. So in lieu of producing crap to maintain a consistent schedule, I’ve decided to give myself permission to write more inconsistently rather than sacrifice quality, quite possibly at the expense of losing a consistent readership.
3. A Niche
Is there a niche for a cranky Asian Christian blogger who posts recipes, DIYs, dabbles in everything, sucks at being Asian, is afraid of white people, rants about Christian culture, is the first to admit that she DOESN’T have the 10 steps to the happiest marriage in the world, gives free therapy, cusses occasionally, and writes about how her husband reminds her of Aragorn and that Arab guy from The Mummy? No? Well, then it makes it near impossible for…
Big bloggers swear that if you comment like crazy on other blogs that you’ll make it big. The thing is, you need a ridiculous amount of free time to do so (it always come back to time). Not having a niche also leaves the sea of the whole entire internet world for you to feebly and haphazardly toss your bait and hope for an audience in return.
I’ll admit, in the very beginning I got caught up in the numbers and publicizing game. Most of my free time was spent, NOT on producing good quality material, but trying to network and increase exposure to the blog. I got carried away in online blog hop parties and link ups, which really don’t result in increased readership, just an inflated number of empty follows from “I’ll-follow-you-if-you-follow-me” blogging events. This means that you’re also getting a whole bunch of crap in your own Facebook, Twitter, Bloglovin, and IG feeds from a bunch of strangers that you don’t really care about.
And you know what I realized from trying to network? Unless it’s a friend’s blog or some other big bloggers that I follow, I really don’t care about 95% of blogs that are out there. And you know what else? I really REALLY don’t care about 99.9% of Christian blogs that are out there, which is the closest thing to a niche that I could find.
I tried, I really did. But after a while, I just couldn’t stomach commenting on and pretending like I really liked these other blogs for the sake of boosting numbers. It felt like I was whoring myself out.
So I’ve stopped trying to network. I unfollowed nearly all of the bloggers that I started following in these tit-for-tat parties on all social media platforms, and am only following people and blogs that I am interested in following. I lost some numbers along the way, but you know what? I maintained my integrity. And I’m pretty sure Jesus says somewhere in the Bible, “For what does it profit a woman to gain a whole bunch of followers for her blog and lose her soul in the process?” AKA “Don’t whore yourself out, Alice,” AKA “To thine own self be true.”
So I’m probably not going to make it big as a blogger anytime soon. Or ever. But I’ve got my own little space in the blogosphere, for which I am so thankful, and an audience for whom it is all so completely worth it. Every private message of encouragement and of “me too!,” every prayer, every “I thought I was the only one!” connection to a post that I’ve written, every story of courage inspired and freedom found through a post, every share, every new connection to a new friend who had a mutual friend who told them about this cranky Christian Asian girl who blogs. I am truly thankful and blessed beyond belief.
So…I guess this is my roundabout way of saying I’m sorry for not posting in over a month?
I told you…that’s why I will never be a big blogger.