This is an odd “day-after-super-serious-post” post, but today I’m going to share with you my typical Saturday look and my day-to-night transformation. Be warned: there will be no make-up on Alice in some pictures! <gasp!> (Good grief, why am I sharing with everyone all of these exposing pictures???)
This, my friends, is a typical Saturday look. Or Monday staff meeting look. Or anytime I’m not with anyone except RJ look.
And are you ready for it?? The close-up of my face with no make-up…okay, I really don’t think you can be ready for it…but here goes…
After cleaning myself up nice and good and putting on a little make-up, this is the day to night transformation.
And finally, the face.
If you look at my faces side by side, you’ll note some significant changes.
First of all, you can see that a little make-up helped even out my blotchy skin tone, cover up my acne scars, and gives me a more glowy look. My face is more contoured with the help of some bronzer, blush, and highlighter. My eyes are also significantly more defined and my lashes look longer and fuller, with the help of my all-time favorite mascara, CoverGirl LashBlast (and waterproof of course, for my oily Asian eyelids) and some falsies. You can’t really tell, but my brows are filled in (but not too strong, so I don’t look like an angry man), which a lot of people underestimate in make-up application. And finally, I finished the transformation off with a strong red lip, which I think pulled it all together nicely.
My day to night transformation probably took about 45 minutes total, which includes make-up application and wrapping that crazy multi-way dress in the way that I wanted to. On a normal day, it typically takes me 15-20 minutes to get my face ready, and the look is usually a lot more subdued than this one.
Now six years ago, had someone challenged me to (and my roommate did, haha) share the blank canvas version of my face with even strangers at the supermarket, I would have been all like, “Oh heeeeeell no!!” Seriously. I’d put on make-up just to pick up one thing at the grocery store.
But you know, God has done a great work in freeing me from some really deep insecurities with regards to not only my body, but also my face. I have a naturally splotchy complexion, I have a history of acne problems, and my face also scars very easily. I was once told that I wouldn’t get married with my face in the condition that it was in (true story) and on that same day, I was told that God was punishing me for my vanity and for caring too much about my face by giving me acne. And that all really wrecked me. What is it, God?? Do I not care enough or do I care too much?? And which is the greater evil???
I’ve come to settle on a good resting place in the middle between letting my appearances completely define me and dictate my life and completely forsaking my appearances because “it is evil in the sight of God.” Because really, neither extreme is healthy. He defines who I am and my worth as an individual, and yet He also delights when we create beauty. Not that I’m not beautiful when I’m not “creating,” I am just saying that I certainly don’t consider it sinful to wear make-up and to play around with colors.
God has given me a firmer foundation in coming to this place where I am more comfortable in my skin, and has given RJ to be such a support to me in undoing a lot of the messages I have heard from around me surrounding beauty. When he sees my fresh face, he’ll smile really big and say something like, “There are my freckles!!” And whether I’m wearing make-up or not, sometimes he will just gaze adoringly at my face and tell me I look beautiful. And the look on his face is so genuine that I know he truly believes it. He has helped me to really love myself and define myself, not by appearances, but for who God created me to be as a whole. He has been the instrument of so much healing, and I am so thankful for him.
I’m grateful to have come to this place where I am not compelled to wear make-up every day. In fact, I am fairly certain that all of our students here have seen me fresh-faced! And now that I am not compelled or bound to wear make-up whenever I see anyone, I really just have so much fun and freedom to play around and experiment with make-up and colors. And I’m loving it!
Wow, this post REALLY rabbit-trailed…I don’t even know where I was going with it…but somehow it ended up where it did…hmm…thanks for reading? (I’m Ron Burgundy?)