I’ve been thinking lately. I think pain can be a good thing. Our basic human instinct is to move AWAY from any sort of pain possible. Well, that’s MY basic instinct!! Except in the case of piercings and tattoos. I sort of ask for that kind of pain (speaking of tattoos…). In fact, I even pay monies for that kind of pain…
But hear me out. When our sweet lil pup got spayed, the veterinarian asked us whether we wanted to buy some extra pain medication to help make her recovery more comfortable. The downside, the vet said, was that if Daisy didn’t feel the pain, she may go tearing around the house in a puppy frenzy, jump on the furniture, and in the process rip open her stitches, it could get infected and subsequently extend the healing time. Daisy is a hyper pup. We decided against the pain meds.
Mind you, we are not evil owners who revel in her pain. In fact, it nearly brought me to tears to see how pitiful and weak she was after her spaying! RJ felt SOOO bad when she yelped in pain as he picked her up to go outside to potty because she couldn’t even walk outside on her own. Pain sucks. But sometimes, it keeps us from dragging out our healing.
Example two: I just got a root canal re-treated. Meaning, it was a root canal, it got reinfected, so they had to do the root canal again. SuX0rz for me. Last week, my good buddy and the best dentist ever took a look and referred me to a specialist. He had drilled a large hole and covered it up a temporary (?). He advised me not to chew with that side of my mouth. Well, it didn’t hurt at the time so I forgot, munched away at a chocolate chip cookie the next day, and next thing I know, the temporary had fallen out. DOH!
Fast forward to this week, after the root canal has been fully re-treated, but unfilled. Meaning, the canals have been cleaned out, anti-bacterialized, filled, but the body of the tooth still needs to be filled. Dr. Specialist puts in the temporary again and advises me not to chew with that side of my mouth until I can get it properly filled, otherwise it could get reinfected and completely ruin all of his hard work. And then I’d have to come back for another root canal. No please!
Well, the good news. My mouth is in SO. MUCH. friggin pain that I couldn’t chew on that side of my mouth even if I really wanted to. Seriously. Just biting down hard shoots this crazy nerve pain all along the right side of my mouth. It throbs when I am just breathing. Chew with that side of my mouth?? Yeah right, I would rather eat dirt. Once again, pain, though it sucks, keeps me from a drawn-out healing process. It’s necessary, otherwise I would go right on chewing with that side of my mouth, pull the temporary out in something sticky, get the tooth reinfected, have to get the root canal redone, etc. etc. etc. Pain saves me from all this.
I think God leads us to walk through pain for our own good. And we want to run in the opposite direction and take the comfortable and cushy way. But along the comfortable and cushy way, sometimes we just prolong what God wants to do in our lives. We prolong our healing.
Was my road to recovery from anorexia peaches and cream? Heeeeeeeell no. It was THE MOST TRYING experience of my life. Would I have rather just lived my “comfortable” life of restricting calories, exercising like mad every day, drinking gallons and gallons of water because it was “safer,” “more comfortable,” and “less painful” than actually facing my demons, halting my life, and going through treatment? You betcha! Because that crap is PAINFUL.
But it was only in walking through the pain and experiencing it that healing could finally come, and way more expediently than if I had continued to walk in comfort. In turning around and facing my demons, however painful it would be, I could finally defeat them. I am thankful that God has been gracious enough to break me so many times in my life just so that I could experience His healing and freedom.
Pain sucks. But sometimes, we need the pain to help bring healing. Just…maybe, God…if You could take away SOME of this horrific throbbing tooth pain? Just a little bit? Thanks. :)
Okay okay, I know what some of you are thinking. “What the heck, Alice, you launch into a post just as if you’ve been blogging regularly for the past 5 months when you have blogged NOTHING. AT. ALL. IN. FOREVER.” I know, I know!! I am ashamed! But let me sum up what has happened in the past 5 months in two words: GRAD SCHOOL.
No, actually, a lot has happened. I’ll fill ya’ll in soon. Whoever ya’ll may be…maybe just my sister…hahaha.